The day I last entered a blog post was a bad day for me.  Something happened that shook me to my core. I am still not recovered from it, and I don't think I ever will be.  However, it was the impetus to start something new...

I started researching meditation.  I need to relax.  My stress was sky-high after that day.  I've started a program I found on cassette at the library by Jon Kabat-Zinn.  He runs some big stress-reduction clinic through an east coast university.  Or something like that.  I really like it.  I've only listened to the first few cassettes, but have already been putting the breathing techniques to work.

Someday I will conquer the demons in my mind.

Yesterday, for the first time in nearly two years, I walked a 5K.  I was thrilled.  That night I did a kettlebell workout.  Today depression hit me hard and I was weepy all day long.  I have to beat this.

Tomorrow, the plan is to get to the gym in the morning.  That is the best anti-depressant there is--for me.

Yesterday and today my calories have been spot on.

Bad things will happen in life.  None of us can avoid them.  I personally need to learn to not let them consume me.  That is when I get all messed up.

Moving forward.

A quote that helps tremendously:

"You have made some mistakes and you may not be where you want to be, but that has nothing to do with your future."  Zig Zigar



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