Deep Thoughts

Oh, yes, my humor shines through...Deep Thoughts with Stuart Smalley.  Ahem.



I had a down day today.  I chose a cheat meal tonight.  That's okay, because I have planned on that--life happens.  That way I don't go crazy when I crave something, I plan it.  However, I had a down day and didn't work out.



I called a friend and talked over an hour.  She mentioned it, and I had to agree.  I am very lonely.  I know a lot of people in my town, but I have no friends here.  Those that I did have moved away.  Summer is difficult because I'm not on campus and around people.  Isolation sucks.  It does not help the ongoing depression.



My friend that I visited with worked with me.  She saw me around people, she got to know me very well. She has since moved across the country, so I'm thankful we have phones!  She said I was very likable and a people person.  That sounded so odd to me as I just have not clicked here.  I have lived here for 17 years!!!



That's okay.  I think tomorrow I will force myself out.  I will go to the gym just to be around people. That helps.  I might dig through my change jar and go for a cup of coffee and take a book.  Just getting out does so much.



Stagnating in my home does no good.  It's an excuse, and it fans the depression.  Getting out, getting new energy, sights, sounds and smells--maybe smiles is a good way to conquer it.  Being active is as well.



So tomorrow, hitting it hard.  Forcing myself.  NO EXCUSES

Goals

For me, goal setting is very important.  When starting out at 282.5 pounds, losing ALL that weight was overwhelming and seemingly impossible.  So I made a bunch of goals.  There is a page somewhere on my blog with my former goals.

When I sat down to plan my re-start, I made new goals.  This morning I hit my first mini-goal.  Feeling pretty awesome.

I have also made a completion date.  I never gave myself an "I will be done by" date.  I think that was a missing element.  So the date is set, and I have a countdown ticker on my phone and I know how many days I have got to kick some fat.

Within that allotted time, I plan to lose 70 pounds to finally hit goal weight.  I have never been firm about my goal weight, but now I am.   When I did the math to figure out how much I have to lose each month until I get to that date, I was surprised.  It's not the 10 pounds per month that this perfectionist always tried to get. It's half that.

When I realized my goal is to lose 5-6 pounds a month, a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.  That just seems easier to obtain.  It gives room for life.  I like it.

Time to kick some fat!!