Today's Thoughts

Exercise.

Get some.

What?

I have an entire gym in my basement, and I own a couple hundred fitness DVDs, most of which I love.  We bought a gym-quality treadmill off Craigslist several years back that still works beautifully.  I have a Schwinn indoor bike, but I don't like it at all.  I have a weight bench, dumbells, several barbells, a water-filled punching bag, gloves, a TRX knock off, bands--you name it, I have it.  Oh, I forgot my most beloved:  several kettlebells.

I never go in that basement except to do laundry.

Why.

Why would I turn my back on something I love so very much.  I love getting sweaty, working out, and that huge release that comes with it!  I can eliminate anxiety by working out, and it is proven exercise is an excellent "pill" for depression. 

What gives?

Obstacles
1. Time
    Horrible schedule, it just is.  I like routine, and my routine is chaotic.
2. Energy
3. Desire--because homework is always there, exhaustion is always there, and household chores are always there all waiting and vying for my attention
4. Attitude
5. PAIN
    low back, hip, knee, and the feet that will never heal
6. Clothes
    I have tons of cute workout clothes in several sizes but the size I need :p~~~
    *I don't need cute,  I just need comfortable
7. Confidence
    cough, cough, cough
    Yes, this is shattered.  No longer can I do pushups on my toes, or swing heavier kettlebells, or even walk for long periods on the treadmill. My fitness level has dwindled.
8. Pride.
    I bruised my pride by letting my fitness slide.
9. Pain. 
    Yeah, I already mentioned this.  I have a lot of physical pain, and I have a bad attitude about it.

So, fix it.

How!

I'm in that contemplation stage.

I will dig deep, and figure things out.  It's a must, because I don't want more pain than I already have AND I know that I can reduce a lot of the pain I do have by losing some weight.

It seems so easy, but for some reason it's not.