I just worked out.
I did Richard Simmons' Sweatin' to the Oldies.
I stink. I sweat a lot. I didn't think I'd make it through the whole thing, but I DID. AND...it was fun!
Woo-hoo!
4.18.2009
Saturday Thoughts
Today I added more vitamins into my mix. I am now taking 2 Omega 3s, a multi, Vitamin C 2 times a day, Vitamin E, 2 baby aspirin, and my prescription medication. Next week I'm going to add some more into the mix.
Have a few NSVs. My bras fit much, much better. No longer do I feel like I am being cut in two. I can breathe while wearing them. I can move while wearing them. This is such a huge relief to me. When I take them off, I no longer have the lines where they were.
My shorts that I wore last summer made an appearance, as we finally received lovely weather. I'm glad to say they fit better than last summer. Nice and comfortable!
I like to run around the house in t-shirts & shorts or sweats and wear "real clothes" when I go out. I'm all about comfort. I pulled a t-shirt out of my drawer this morning that I hadn't worn in a long time due to the fact it was very snug around my big belly. It is now loose around that shrinking but still big belly. I was thrilled!
I had a crabby fit this morning at the expense of my poor husband. He did something that really made me mad and I let him know it! I apologized later (even though he was in the wrong, ha ha) for my outburst. Upon reflection, I know that I was projecting my anger at myself on him. I'm upset with myself that I was so lazy this past week.
Fortunately, someone turned on my light switch and I got up and got to work today. Laundry's going, things are getting cleaned, picked up, etc. Life's getting back to normal but for my crabby attack. I'm about do menu planning.
And that's it. I'm feeling better, but still a bit scared. I need to take responsibility for my actions and take the bull by the horns. I'm doing that. One day at a time.
Have a few NSVs. My bras fit much, much better. No longer do I feel like I am being cut in two. I can breathe while wearing them. I can move while wearing them. This is such a huge relief to me. When I take them off, I no longer have the lines where they were.
My shorts that I wore last summer made an appearance, as we finally received lovely weather. I'm glad to say they fit better than last summer. Nice and comfortable!
I like to run around the house in t-shirts & shorts or sweats and wear "real clothes" when I go out. I'm all about comfort. I pulled a t-shirt out of my drawer this morning that I hadn't worn in a long time due to the fact it was very snug around my big belly. It is now loose around that shrinking but still big belly. I was thrilled!
I had a crabby fit this morning at the expense of my poor husband. He did something that really made me mad and I let him know it! I apologized later (even though he was in the wrong, ha ha) for my outburst. Upon reflection, I know that I was projecting my anger at myself on him. I'm upset with myself that I was so lazy this past week.
Fortunately, someone turned on my light switch and I got up and got to work today. Laundry's going, things are getting cleaned, picked up, etc. Life's getting back to normal but for my crabby attack. I'm about do menu planning.
And that's it. I'm feeling better, but still a bit scared. I need to take responsibility for my actions and take the bull by the horns. I'm doing that. One day at a time.
4.17.2009
Lazy A$$ Revisited
As I sit at my computer at 10 am still in my jammies, I have to admit it's time to take responsibility for some things.
I do need to get over being lazy in areas. I AM lazy in areas. As part of finding my new normal, I need to own it, fix it, take it to a place where I'm more comfortable and make it habit.
1) Not showering immediately when I get up in the morning.
2) I'm lazy with housework.
3) I'm lazy with laundry.
4) I'm lazy with bill paying.
5) I'm lazy regarding exercise.
6) I'm lazy with kitchen organization/grocery shopping.
7) I'm lazy concerning special projects, things that need to get done.
8) Going to bed at a decent hour, getting up at a decent hour. Define decent hour! We start school around 9:30-10. In the beginning of the school year it's 9 and it slips a few minutes here and there.
Gees, when looking at this list, I can say that my housewifely duties are not getting done in proper order.
Now, there are a lot of areas in my life where I am not lazy. Homeschool, for one. That is my number one priority. It has to be. This takes a lot of time on my part just for organization, research, etc. There are many other areas that I won't list, because they're not the focus of my thinking.
I am not a multi-tasker. I don't do it well at all. I am the type that hyperfocuses, and I do the task at hand very well. Throw something else into the mix and I'm overwhelmed.
I can take any one of the items on my list for a week and do them really well. One week recently I was up and showered every morning. I fell short, though.
I think I make life more difficult for myself by being lazy. Most times all the items on my list I blow off simply out of laziness. Sometimes it's out of guilt: I need to do X now instead of Y or Z. I haven't done C, so how dare I start with F.
Today I'm going to work on a routine that will fit our life. I'm going to get off my lazy butt and get going.
Soon I'll post about my issue with weekends...that's even scarier.
I'm in a quest to find a new normal. New food, new body, rejuvenated spirit, new routines. I can do that--it's all connected.
I do need to get over being lazy in areas. I AM lazy in areas. As part of finding my new normal, I need to own it, fix it, take it to a place where I'm more comfortable and make it habit.
1) Not showering immediately when I get up in the morning.
This sets the tone for the whole day, and I mess it up almost every day.
2) I'm lazy with housework.
3) I'm lazy with laundry.
4) I'm lazy with bill paying.
5) I'm lazy regarding exercise.
6) I'm lazy with kitchen organization/grocery shopping.
I don't thaw the chicken or the meat when I'm supposed to which sets us up for
dinner issues. This happens frequently. I'm also lazy when it comes
time to do a weekly shopping trip.
7) I'm lazy concerning special projects, things that need to get done.
8) Going to bed at a decent hour, getting up at a decent hour. Define decent hour! We start school around 9:30-10. In the beginning of the school year it's 9 and it slips a few minutes here and there.
Gees, when looking at this list, I can say that my housewifely duties are not getting done in proper order.
Now, there are a lot of areas in my life where I am not lazy. Homeschool, for one. That is my number one priority. It has to be. This takes a lot of time on my part just for organization, research, etc. There are many other areas that I won't list, because they're not the focus of my thinking.
I am not a multi-tasker. I don't do it well at all. I am the type that hyperfocuses, and I do the task at hand very well. Throw something else into the mix and I'm overwhelmed.
I can take any one of the items on my list for a week and do them really well. One week recently I was up and showered every morning. I fell short, though.
I think I make life more difficult for myself by being lazy. Most times all the items on my list I blow off simply out of laziness. Sometimes it's out of guilt: I need to do X now instead of Y or Z. I haven't done C, so how dare I start with F.
Today I'm going to work on a routine that will fit our life. I'm going to get off my lazy butt and get going.
Soon I'll post about my issue with weekends...that's even scarier.
I'm in a quest to find a new normal. New food, new body, rejuvenated spirit, new routines. I can do that--it's all connected.
4.16.2009
Less Than 31 Cents a Day
We've all seen those commercials on TV that state you can support a child for less than 50 cents a day...you know, the ones that break your heart and touch you deeply.
I don't support any of those, but I do have my favorite charities. (The Epilepsy Foundation is my favorite, as my sweet son has epilepsy.) I contribute whenever I can. I remember a couple Christmases ago, I read about a homeschool family who had a house fire and lost everything. I sent them a check for what would have been my Christmas present. I couldn't imagine being in their shoes, especially at Christmas.
Anyway, a few years back I was a member at Richard Simmons Clubhouse. I liked it. The people were great. I didn't participate fully because I wasn't working a program. As I stated recently, I have always had a love for Richard Simmons. I think he draws great people to him as well. So I was looking at his site and considering joining up.
When I looked at the cost plans, there was one that was $109.50 for 364 days. That works out to less than 31 cents a day.
When we think about all we do for others, because we want to, we often forget ourselves. I do. Mom always eats a cold dinner, mom always goes to bed last as she's straightening the house, mom always picks up the pieces. Moms do that.
I got to thinking, though, why not support myself as my favorite charity? Put myself first!?! I mean I'm in a world of hurt, literally. I have pain daily. I am working so hard on getting myself healthy. Like on the airplane, we need to put our oxygen mask on first, then help others. Well, I need to do everything I can to take care of myself so I can better help others.
So I'm going to do it. I'm going to join. The only thing holding me back is a user name. I'm not very good at user names, and I want something fun and creative, and I just don't have creative juices to do that. Help?
If this is to become my new normal, I need to surround myself with positive vibes and inspiration. Like I do on the blog. I can have both, and will. I need to immerse myself in it so it becomes second nature, where I don't need to think.
So I will. As soon as I come up with a user name.
~~~
I in no way am making light of the desperate need of children that need help that we see in those commercials. I just made the connection that I donate to my favorite causes, I just need to donate to myself as well.
I don't support any of those, but I do have my favorite charities. (The Epilepsy Foundation is my favorite, as my sweet son has epilepsy.) I contribute whenever I can. I remember a couple Christmases ago, I read about a homeschool family who had a house fire and lost everything. I sent them a check for what would have been my Christmas present. I couldn't imagine being in their shoes, especially at Christmas.
Anyway, a few years back I was a member at Richard Simmons Clubhouse. I liked it. The people were great. I didn't participate fully because I wasn't working a program. As I stated recently, I have always had a love for Richard Simmons. I think he draws great people to him as well. So I was looking at his site and considering joining up.
When I looked at the cost plans, there was one that was $109.50 for 364 days. That works out to less than 31 cents a day.
When we think about all we do for others, because we want to, we often forget ourselves. I do. Mom always eats a cold dinner, mom always goes to bed last as she's straightening the house, mom always picks up the pieces. Moms do that.
I got to thinking, though, why not support myself as my favorite charity? Put myself first!?! I mean I'm in a world of hurt, literally. I have pain daily. I am working so hard on getting myself healthy. Like on the airplane, we need to put our oxygen mask on first, then help others. Well, I need to do everything I can to take care of myself so I can better help others.
So I'm going to do it. I'm going to join. The only thing holding me back is a user name. I'm not very good at user names, and I want something fun and creative, and I just don't have creative juices to do that. Help?
If this is to become my new normal, I need to surround myself with positive vibes and inspiration. Like I do on the blog. I can have both, and will. I need to immerse myself in it so it becomes second nature, where I don't need to think.
So I will. As soon as I come up with a user name.
~~~
I in no way am making light of the desperate need of children that need help that we see in those commercials. I just made the connection that I donate to my favorite causes, I just need to donate to myself as well.
Commonalities
As I read weight loss blogs, I am beginning to see many commonalities.
Many have anxiety issues. Many do not want any attention drawn to themselves. Many use food as comfort.
I fit all three, which is probably why I've seen that in other bloggers.
I don't want attention drawn to myself whatsoever. I had a small wedding on purpose. I like to be in things, but on the side.
My favorite place to be is in my home. I'm a hermit by choice, although I'm not quite a hermit.
I have not told a single soul I know about this blog, other than my son and husband. I have not told anyone that I am on Weight Watchers again. I don't want the attention drawn to me, I don't want the lectures that I get from everyone--the lectures basically are that I should do what they tell me, what suits them, with no open mindedness to see that I need this journey to be my way.
After listening to the lectures, I get emotional and want to eat.
The anxiety? I've got no answers for that one.
It makes me feel so much less alone, learning there are others that share my struggles. It makes me feel less weak. I shouldn't feel weak at all, because we're all different, but I think that's a societal interpretation that I have accepted.
Bottom line is this: Strangers, who have become friends, have helped me in this journey far more than the people that love me, except for my hubby and son. I have found common bonds with strangers/now friends that fill a need I have not fulfilled in real life.
This blogging business is good therapy.
Many have anxiety issues. Many do not want any attention drawn to themselves. Many use food as comfort.
I fit all three, which is probably why I've seen that in other bloggers.
I don't want attention drawn to myself whatsoever. I had a small wedding on purpose. I like to be in things, but on the side.
My favorite place to be is in my home. I'm a hermit by choice, although I'm not quite a hermit.
I have not told a single soul I know about this blog, other than my son and husband. I have not told anyone that I am on Weight Watchers again. I don't want the attention drawn to me, I don't want the lectures that I get from everyone--the lectures basically are that I should do what they tell me, what suits them, with no open mindedness to see that I need this journey to be my way.
After listening to the lectures, I get emotional and want to eat.
The anxiety? I've got no answers for that one.
It makes me feel so much less alone, learning there are others that share my struggles. It makes me feel less weak. I shouldn't feel weak at all, because we're all different, but I think that's a societal interpretation that I have accepted.
Bottom line is this: Strangers, who have become friends, have helped me in this journey far more than the people that love me, except for my hubby and son. I have found common bonds with strangers/now friends that fill a need I have not fulfilled in real life.
This blogging business is good therapy.
2-Month Anniversary
Today marks two full months on Weight Watchers. I have officially lost 17 pounds, although the scale was down a little yesterday and again today. I have lost 6% of my starting body weight. My BMI has gone from 47 to 44.2.
I'm having my moments and thinking my way through them. Usually I'm okay.
I need to exercise more.
I need to eat more variety--at dinner. I like my routine for breakfast and lunch. I seem to be making the same things over and over for dinner, though.
I have not craved sweets hardly at all. We did get an ice cream cone at McDonald's one night, and I do have an occasional breakfast cookie. Otherwise I'm good. Tonight while reading blogs, I saw a picture of a Vitabrownie. Oh my gosh, I drooled. Stay away, stay very far away.
I need more veggies and fruits. That's the story of my life.
I feel full with breads, carbs.
I go for the biggest bang for the points. High volume, filling foods.
~~~~
I don't really reward myself with things for goals reached. I never know what to get. I'm not a jewelry person, so a charm bracelet wouldn't work. I don't really want to spend the money: less is more. I think the changes in my body are reward enough.
Today, though, I bought myself the Richard Simmons collection from QVC. Ang mentioned it on her blog and I followed her link. I have had this in my Amazon wish list for a long time, but at QVC I got two more DVDs for the same price.
I love Richard Simmons. I always have and always will. I need to force myself to work out daily with him. Walking the dog at night has been great to get me going, and something I must continue. He's a border collie, after all, and the breed needs to exercise. My hubby walks the older dogs in the morning. That walk is not enough, though.
~~~
I take things one day at a time. One meal at a time, really. In the back of my mind, I am constantly thinking. I think to the time I lost 72 pounds and ended up gaining it back plus 20 some. I think, "When will I be able to eat normally again?" Then I think to that 72 pounds. The answer is never. The answer is there must be a new normal. That was a lesson I did not learn the last time.
~~~
Most importantly, I hope my health is better. I hope my blood work will reflect all my work. My blood pressure was on the high end of normal. I hope it's better now. I was borderline diabetic. I hope that my blood sugar is better.
I feel a little better. I have a bit more zip in my step. I'm still tired a lot, I still have pains and aches, swelling in my leg, foot and ankle. I'm getting there, though.
~~~
The journey continues. I am worth it.
I'm having my moments and thinking my way through them. Usually I'm okay.
I need to exercise more.
I need to eat more variety--at dinner. I like my routine for breakfast and lunch. I seem to be making the same things over and over for dinner, though.
I have not craved sweets hardly at all. We did get an ice cream cone at McDonald's one night, and I do have an occasional breakfast cookie. Otherwise I'm good. Tonight while reading blogs, I saw a picture of a Vitabrownie. Oh my gosh, I drooled. Stay away, stay very far away.
I need more veggies and fruits. That's the story of my life.
I feel full with breads, carbs.
I go for the biggest bang for the points. High volume, filling foods.
~~~~
I don't really reward myself with things for goals reached. I never know what to get. I'm not a jewelry person, so a charm bracelet wouldn't work. I don't really want to spend the money: less is more. I think the changes in my body are reward enough.
Today, though, I bought myself the Richard Simmons collection from QVC. Ang mentioned it on her blog and I followed her link. I have had this in my Amazon wish list for a long time, but at QVC I got two more DVDs for the same price.
I love Richard Simmons. I always have and always will. I need to force myself to work out daily with him. Walking the dog at night has been great to get me going, and something I must continue. He's a border collie, after all, and the breed needs to exercise. My hubby walks the older dogs in the morning. That walk is not enough, though.
~~~
I take things one day at a time. One meal at a time, really. In the back of my mind, I am constantly thinking. I think to the time I lost 72 pounds and ended up gaining it back plus 20 some. I think, "When will I be able to eat normally again?" Then I think to that 72 pounds. The answer is never. The answer is there must be a new normal. That was a lesson I did not learn the last time.
~~~
Most importantly, I hope my health is better. I hope my blood work will reflect all my work. My blood pressure was on the high end of normal. I hope it's better now. I was borderline diabetic. I hope that my blood sugar is better.
I feel a little better. I have a bit more zip in my step. I'm still tired a lot, I still have pains and aches, swelling in my leg, foot and ankle. I'm getting there, though.
~~~
The journey continues. I am worth it.
4.15.2009
Kelly Made Me Laugh!
In response to my progress photos, Kelly stated:
I laughed so hard I snorted.
Some things just really strike you as funny, and this did.
Thank you for the laugh, Kelly.
"I see a difference too. Especially in your face. :P just kidding." ...
I laughed so hard I snorted.
Some things just really strike you as funny, and this did.
Thank you for the laugh, Kelly.
Tagged
(Please excuse my messy post, I didn't take time to do the links properly.)
MackAttack http://fatbusterv2.blogspot.com/, Kelly http://happytexans.blogspot.com/ and TJ http://fatbusterv2.blogspot.com/ have all tagged me for the Only 8. See, I am so behind on reading blogs, I'm just now seeing these! Thank you, I am honored to play along.
Only 8
8 Things I am Looking Forward to:
1. The end of the school year!
2. Going South Dakota to visit family and friends.
3. Great reduction in pain.
4. Better health.
5. Being thinner.
6. Being with my son. I'm with him every day, but I look forward to him waking up in the morning.
7. Going home one last time to visit my parents' graves, Casa Bonita, my old stomping grounds.
8. Playing with my doggies.
8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1. Took care of a sick son.
2. Picked up my taxes.
3. Said yes to the persistent library volunteer who desperately wanted me to work the library book sale. Ugh, I'll take my Xanax.
4. Took a nap.
5. Trained my puppy.
6. Cleaned the floor after my puppy pottied on it. Several times.
7. Scrounged for food while remaining within points.8. Cracked a window and enjoyed the fresh spring air.
8 Things I Wish I Could do:
1. Bend over.
2. Tie my shoes without having the bows end up on the side rather than centered.
3. Make a quilt.
4. Live in the country.
5. Buy a motor home, take a year off traveling the US, teaching my son geography and history along the way--visiting Civil War battlefields on their anniversary dates, etc.
6. Further my genealogy research and visit graves, places where they lived ,etc.
7. Time travel, so I could visit my parents, grandparents, ancestors, Abraham Lincoln, other great people.
8. Buy clothes in a regular store or out of the fat-lady department.
8 Shows I Watch:
1. The Real Housewives of New York.
2. The Real Housewives of Atlanta.
3. The Real Housewives of Orange County.
4. The Real Housewives of New Jersey. This one I'm not so sure I'll keep watching, though. lol
5. Top Chef
6. NCIS reruns
7. House reruns
8. Survivor
8 People I tag:
1. Ang at Get Fit After 40. http://getfitby40.blogspot.com/
2. SeaShore at Weight by the SeaShore http://seashorerose.blogspot.com/
3. Dutch at My Ups and Downs of Everyday Life http://myupsdownsofeverydaylife.blogspot.com/
4. wildfuffysheep at In[fat]uation: It will eat you http://infatuationwilleatyou.blogspot.com/
5. Fat[Free]Me at Fat [free] Me http://fat-free-me.blogspot.com/
6. bbubblyb at Fixing Myself Thinner http://bbubblyb.blogspot.com/
7. Debby at De-Puffing Pixie With Weight Watchers http://puffypixie.blogspot.com/
8. HopeFool at Praying for Lightning http://prayingforlightening.blogspot.com/
I love memes, but I always hate being limited to a certain number of people to tag.
MackAttack http://fatbusterv2.blogspot.com/, Kelly http://happytexans.blogspot.com/ and TJ http://fatbusterv2.blogspot.com/ have all tagged me for the Only 8. See, I am so behind on reading blogs, I'm just now seeing these! Thank you, I am honored to play along.
Only 8
8 Things I am Looking Forward to:
1. The end of the school year!
2. Going South Dakota to visit family and friends.
3. Great reduction in pain.
4. Better health.
5. Being thinner.
6. Being with my son. I'm with him every day, but I look forward to him waking up in the morning.
7. Going home one last time to visit my parents' graves, Casa Bonita, my old stomping grounds.
8. Playing with my doggies.
8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1. Took care of a sick son.
2. Picked up my taxes.
3. Said yes to the persistent library volunteer who desperately wanted me to work the library book sale. Ugh, I'll take my Xanax.
4. Took a nap.
5. Trained my puppy.
6. Cleaned the floor after my puppy pottied on it. Several times.
7. Scrounged for food while remaining within points.8. Cracked a window and enjoyed the fresh spring air.
8 Things I Wish I Could do:
1. Bend over.
2. Tie my shoes without having the bows end up on the side rather than centered.
3. Make a quilt.
4. Live in the country.
5. Buy a motor home, take a year off traveling the US, teaching my son geography and history along the way--visiting Civil War battlefields on their anniversary dates, etc.
6. Further my genealogy research and visit graves, places where they lived ,etc.
7. Time travel, so I could visit my parents, grandparents, ancestors, Abraham Lincoln, other great people.
8. Buy clothes in a regular store or out of the fat-lady department.
8 Shows I Watch:
1. The Real Housewives of New York.
2. The Real Housewives of Atlanta.
3. The Real Housewives of Orange County.
4. The Real Housewives of New Jersey. This one I'm not so sure I'll keep watching, though. lol
5. Top Chef
6. NCIS reruns
7. House reruns
8. Survivor
8 People I tag:
1. Ang at Get Fit After 40. http://getfitby40.blogspot.com/
2. SeaShore at Weight by the SeaShore http://seashorerose.blogspot.com/
3. Dutch at My Ups and Downs of Everyday Life http://myupsdownsofeverydaylife.blogspot.com/
4. wildfuffysheep at In[fat]uation: It will eat you http://infatuationwilleatyou.blogspot.com/
5. Fat[Free]Me at Fat [free] Me http://fat-free-me.blogspot.com/
6. bbubblyb at Fixing Myself Thinner http://bbubblyb.blogspot.com/
7. Debby at De-Puffing Pixie With Weight Watchers http://puffypixie.blogspot.com/
8. HopeFool at Praying for Lightning http://prayingforlightening.blogspot.com/
I love memes, but I always hate being limited to a certain number of people to tag.
Lazy A$$
I am having a terrible case of lazy a$$.
Who died and made me queen?
I don't feel like doing anything! And the scary part is I'm NOT doing anything.
I have laundry to do, dishwasher to unload and reload, floors to vacuum, bathrooms to clean. Supper to thaw. I have bills to do and a major project to finish.
Most importantly, I have groceries to buy.
Here I sit. Doing nothing.
I got up before 6 this morning -- that is amazing, if you know me. Drove the new used car to the shop to have something looked at, dropped DH off at work. I even bought coffee and milk, as we were out. I didn't bother to get other things we need.
Came home, started trying to get caught up on blogs. I got sleepy. Checked my son, he was still feverish and sleeping, so I didn't wake him. I took a nap for a half hour.
The alarm went off, I got up, checked my son, played with the dogs, and then set the alarm for 45 more minutes.
That went off, I got up, got my son up. (He's feeling better today, but still not 100%.) We started school. He was doing his work, I was trying to catch up on blogs. I read a few, and got stopped at Ang's blog. I clicked her link and watched Richard Simmons on QVC and decided to order the DVDs. QVC's website kept screwing up. Froze my computer twice as I was trying to make my account. Finally got that figured out, and it wouldn't let me order. I tried for a half hour. Waste of time, because in 30 seconds I ordered on the phone. Go figure. The DVDs are a gift to myself with love. =)
Eating wise, I am starving. I knew that would happen. 1) I got up way early. 2) Yesterday I was not hungry at all. I had to force myself to consume 18 points to get to my target last night. Just wasn't feeling like eating at all. When that happens, the next day I am ravenous.
So the question is: Will I get off my lazy butt and get something done? Will the lure of the internet catch me and devour me? I am feeling guilty I'm behind on blogs. I love to read them and offer support. Or, will I channel my type-A mother, go on a cleaning frenzy and get it together?
I don't know. I have eat lunch first.
Excuses, excuses.
Why can't I ever have the whole package...doing well on eating, exercise and my "job"? I always seem to do well in one or two areas, but never everything.
I do know this: I am being purely lazy. There's no way around it, call a spade a spade. Lazy isn't good.
Who died and made me queen?
I don't feel like doing anything! And the scary part is I'm NOT doing anything.
I have laundry to do, dishwasher to unload and reload, floors to vacuum, bathrooms to clean. Supper to thaw. I have bills to do and a major project to finish.
Most importantly, I have groceries to buy.
Here I sit. Doing nothing.
I got up before 6 this morning -- that is amazing, if you know me. Drove the new used car to the shop to have something looked at, dropped DH off at work. I even bought coffee and milk, as we were out. I didn't bother to get other things we need.
Came home, started trying to get caught up on blogs. I got sleepy. Checked my son, he was still feverish and sleeping, so I didn't wake him. I took a nap for a half hour.
The alarm went off, I got up, checked my son, played with the dogs, and then set the alarm for 45 more minutes.
That went off, I got up, got my son up. (He's feeling better today, but still not 100%.) We started school. He was doing his work, I was trying to catch up on blogs. I read a few, and got stopped at Ang's blog. I clicked her link and watched Richard Simmons on QVC and decided to order the DVDs. QVC's website kept screwing up. Froze my computer twice as I was trying to make my account. Finally got that figured out, and it wouldn't let me order. I tried for a half hour. Waste of time, because in 30 seconds I ordered on the phone. Go figure. The DVDs are a gift to myself with love. =)
Eating wise, I am starving. I knew that would happen. 1) I got up way early. 2) Yesterday I was not hungry at all. I had to force myself to consume 18 points to get to my target last night. Just wasn't feeling like eating at all. When that happens, the next day I am ravenous.
So the question is: Will I get off my lazy butt and get something done? Will the lure of the internet catch me and devour me? I am feeling guilty I'm behind on blogs. I love to read them and offer support. Or, will I channel my type-A mother, go on a cleaning frenzy and get it together?
I don't know. I have eat lunch first.
Excuses, excuses.
Why can't I ever have the whole package...doing well on eating, exercise and my "job"? I always seem to do well in one or two areas, but never everything.
I do know this: I am being purely lazy. There's no way around it, call a spade a spade. Lazy isn't good.
4.14.2009
Tuesday Afternoon (Off Topic Stuff)
It's a beautiful day, the birds are singing, the sun is shining...and we're stuck inside.
My son is sick with some virus. He was up all night, and I think I got about three and a half hours of sleep. My sweet 13 year old still needs his mom when he throws up. I don't do anything, other than clean up the bathroom, but I think he still needs my comfort. That I will gladly give.
My dogs have pink eye. We have to skip this week's obedience class.
I'm tired and overwhelmed.
I've been in a mood since Friday.
I just feel like being completely selfish right now and holing up in my home, avoiding everyone and everything. Instead, I have one the busiest weeks I've had in a long time, and I'm dragging.
So much to do, no desire to do it, and I just don't care. lol
UGH
Eating within points, need to go to the grocery store, but doing fine with no cravings or desires to go off plan. Today. This weekend I had a few evil thoughts that I had to stomp out.
I am way behind on reading blogs. I hate that, as I like to keep up with how everyone is doing.
Life goes on, I gotta get caught up.
My son is sick with some virus. He was up all night, and I think I got about three and a half hours of sleep. My sweet 13 year old still needs his mom when he throws up. I don't do anything, other than clean up the bathroom, but I think he still needs my comfort. That I will gladly give.
My dogs have pink eye. We have to skip this week's obedience class.
I'm tired and overwhelmed.
I've been in a mood since Friday.
I just feel like being completely selfish right now and holing up in my home, avoiding everyone and everything. Instead, I have one the busiest weeks I've had in a long time, and I'm dragging.
So much to do, no desire to do it, and I just don't care. lol
UGH
Eating within points, need to go to the grocery store, but doing fine with no cravings or desires to go off plan. Today. This weekend I had a few evil thoughts that I had to stomp out.
I am way behind on reading blogs. I hate that, as I like to keep up with how everyone is doing.
Life goes on, I gotta get caught up.
4.13.2009
4.12.2009
My Banner Photo
I love this template because it matches the coffee cup my son made me, but I haven't been happy with the header. I put a photo in last night. It still doesn't zing and pop, but it has a lot of meaning to me.
One of my hobbies is genealogy. This photo was taken in Kansas. The property is where my great-great grandparents moved to in the 1870s. They owned the section to the left. My grandmother was born there in the late 1800s. The house is gone, but I know some of the trees are the same. And the road...I look at that road and I know that my ancestors walked it many, many times. Directly behind me is the cemetery, where their baby daughter was buried. I know they traveled that road to visit her grave.
I can envision my great-grandfather as a child, running down the road. I can see him getting cleaned up and courting my great-grandmother. I say that as I sit at their kitchen table. This oak table has hosted meals for six generations, with more to come. I can only imagine the fat and calories this table has held!
I haven't worked on genealogy for some time. I miss it. I love traveling, walking cemeteries, searching records to see where my family lived. As I'm losing weight and feeling better, I know walking those cemeteries will become easier for me. Especially due to the fact I usually do this in the hot summer sun. I think to how my grandparents walked and walked. Even my mother was car-less with two small children, so she walked, too. Necessity. Now I hop in a car without thinking.
I think of them sometimes when I'm walking my dog at night. Something I force myself to do, which was something they didn't even think about: they just did it.
So the photo is a special part of me.
One of my hobbies is genealogy. This photo was taken in Kansas. The property is where my great-great grandparents moved to in the 1870s. They owned the section to the left. My grandmother was born there in the late 1800s. The house is gone, but I know some of the trees are the same. And the road...I look at that road and I know that my ancestors walked it many, many times. Directly behind me is the cemetery, where their baby daughter was buried. I know they traveled that road to visit her grave.
I can envision my great-grandfather as a child, running down the road. I can see him getting cleaned up and courting my great-grandmother. I say that as I sit at their kitchen table. This oak table has hosted meals for six generations, with more to come. I can only imagine the fat and calories this table has held!
I haven't worked on genealogy for some time. I miss it. I love traveling, walking cemeteries, searching records to see where my family lived. As I'm losing weight and feeling better, I know walking those cemeteries will become easier for me. Especially due to the fact I usually do this in the hot summer sun. I think to how my grandparents walked and walked. Even my mother was car-less with two small children, so she walked, too. Necessity. Now I hop in a car without thinking.
I think of them sometimes when I'm walking my dog at night. Something I force myself to do, which was something they didn't even think about: they just did it.
So the photo is a special part of me.
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