Some Days Are Like That

I had a rough, emotional day. My emotions get the best of me and I worry and my body seem to remember learned reactions to past health events and it takes its toll on me. I am completely wiped, drained, and almost zombie-like tonight.

I did not do my yoga. I'm okay with that--just for today. My husband got off the couch and told me to go ahead and workout. I just couldn't. Some days are like that. That's life. I know that we're supposed to exercise because it helps get rid of the stress, but today? I had no strength. I had nothing to give.

Today just felt blue, down and yucky. Some days are like that. We're not guaranteed to have rosy, perfect days all the time. It's bad days that make one appreciate the good days.

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As for the ovary pain, I will share about that. I was so negative and commented on it way too much last month--even though it was a huge part of my life, I don't like to dwell here. Yet it was a big issue so I did dwell. I'm on no-estrogen birth control pills. I haven't even gone through a complete cycle of pills yet, so I don't think they've kicked in yet. The goal is to get me to quit ovulating and see if we can get that pain to go away before we resort to surgery.

Obviously, I did ovulate this month--I say obviously because of the pain. I have had ovarian pain this month since the 4th. I keep a journal for my doctor. It's mild-ish and nothing like it was last month. However, the day I missed exercising--I forget which, as I've missed three days this week--it was bad enough to keep me from exercising. I was able to work out fine the next day. It's an annoyance. I've grasped the area a few times when it flares, but it is not killer awful like last month. So for that I'm thankful. I want to go through two cycles with the pills to see how things are. I really do NOT want another surgery. I have too much to do, I want to finish P90X, and I just don't want to subject my body to a fifth gynecological surgery.

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Hubby is sound asleep, and I'm hoping that ear gets better. It worries me. It's probably a minor thing, but when it affects balance and bleeds, it's of concern. Kick in fast, meds!
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School was a mess today. I had to drive hubby to the doctor and then to pick up his prescription and then to his work and by the time we got home it was late morning and school--well, we did math and DS read his science and we called it a day. I hate days like that, but they happen and it doesn't take much for us to catch up.
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I'll be very open here: I am still dreading P90X's yoga. I previewed about half of the video. Then I closed it down, walked away, shaking my head. I know yoga is very good for people. I know that flexibility training is just as important as weights and cardio. I know that! I do some serious, good stretching every day. It's just that yoga is, well, yoga.

So, could I substitute? Yeah. I have never researched yoga. The only yoga I've done was Priscilla Patrick's yoga that used to run on PBS years ago. That wasn't too bad. I liked her, she was very gentle. It took me a long time to find her name, but I did. She is still teaching and still provides her videos free to PBS stations. Problem is, Iowa and MN PBS that broadcast where I live does not have her show. She does have some videos for sale on her site. I may buy one. I don't think I can do 90 minutes right now. Goal would be to work up to it, but now I just need to learn it and go slow. So I'll order one of her videos tomorrow. Unless, of course, someone can recommend a really good beginner yoga video. Criteria: None of that creepy yoga music. I watch the yoga programs on FitTV and--yuck. So not for me. Priscilla has no music in her videos--and as much as I appreciate music, I appreciate no music for the yoga even more. lol

The funny thing about Priscilla Patrick? She lives in Columbia, South Carolina. You all know I am totally in love with The Firm. Well, The Firm originated in Columbia, South Carolina. It was sold, but there is still a Firm studio in Columbia, South Carolina. I think that was a sign that I should order a video from her. lol Good things come from South Carolina. We spent a week in Columbia about five years ago while DH was working there. He's traveled there many times. I loved it.

I've asked DH several times to transfer to Columbia. He said no. Why? Because I, being a northerner, used to -30 winters, would never survive the hot, hot summers there. He may be right.

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My exercising tubing arrived today. I bought this to use with P90X instead of buying higher weights and so I didn't have to run downstairs to our pull-up bar. I have a strap that attaches in a door frame (shut the door on the strap), you thread the tube through, and you can do mock pull-ups. They have one person doing the work like that in the videos. The set I bough has six cords, varying in weights. I played around a bit and was delighted to note that the 12-18 pound cords will be my starter cords. I am getting stronger. My cords go up to 45-50 pounds. I doubt I'll ever use that much, but it's nice to have the option and it's nice not having to clutter my space with more dumbbells.

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That's about all I have to "journal"or "dear diary" tonight. lol I do read my blog posts from the past and it serves as my memory. It's good to be reminded that I have icky days every so often and that I survive them just fine. It's part of life. Old habits die hard, though. We were going to have chicken for supper, but instead I hopped in the car for a few moments of "me" time and drove to Subway. We feasted on delicious subs instead of chicken. I guess old habits didn't die hard, they changed. In days of old, I would have gone to Arby's or Burger King or McDonald's or Wendy's when our Wendy's was open. I would have had the biggie size fries and two sandwiches. I'm okay with Subway. I'm okay with not wanting to cook, too. That doesn't happen often anymore.