I'm Old

There comes a point in time in life when we must realize that we are no longer young and invincible. I am there.  It started with going back to school.  I'm 48.  In one of my classes, of the 160 students in the class, about 95% of them were first-year students: 18 years old.  Yes, I was momma age.  And the students that sat by me weren't very nice to me.  Can you blame them?  Who wants to be sitting by mom?  Being on campus was the first time I really felt old.

My body is old. It cannot do what it once did.  The desire is in my heart, the competitive nature is there, but my body protests.  June 2, 2012 I ran my first 5K and plantar fasciitis set in that afternoon.  Today, January 10, 2014 I am still suffering from it along with a ruptured plantar fascia, a ruptured tendon in my other ankle, tendonitis in each foot, and other stuff.  I can barely walk.

I'm old.  Well, I'm middle aged.

I get REALLY mad at myself when I look at this blog.  Why didn't I finish what I set out to do? Why have I had bumps in the road?  And I start to beat myself up because I should be DONE by now.  However, life happens. I am not perfect nor do I have to be.

Why am I judging myself so harshly?  Why?

Here's the deal.  I may be "old."  I'm no spring chicken, but I am still young at heart.  Age is just a number. I go back to my very favorite quote of all time, "Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use." ~Earl Nightingale  So what to age, so what to time. 

So I'm just picking up where I left off.  It's a struggle, it's hard to work out with physical problems, but I can do my best.  The weight will come off slower, but never give up.

October 12, 2013

One day at a time. It's not a race, it is a wonderful journey.  And instead of beating up on myself for gaining some back, I think I'll just celebrate the changes I've made and be happy that I'm human and that I don't need to be perfect. 

Onward!