As days go on, I am building up my momentum.
Things are becoming more consistent, more regular, more routine. My stomach is aware it is empty at the same time daily, my body craves movement when I typically move out, and I'm settling in well.
Mentally, I am facing ups and downs from people I don't even know, but I'm holding strong.
I make mistakes, I am human and subject to err. I don't have to be perfect.
I'd say things are going very well.
I'm pleased.
Consistency is the key.
6.02.2014
5.29.2014
Better Day
I felt so much better today. That is cause for celebration.
Tonight I hit the gym and did 25 minutes on the spin bike and some weights. I came home and did a kettlebell workout. Nothing like a really good workout to make the endorphins talk to you.
Calories at 1620 for the day.
It was a good day. Tomorrow I will have another good day.
Tonight I hit the gym and did 25 minutes on the spin bike and some weights. I came home and did a kettlebell workout. Nothing like a really good workout to make the endorphins talk to you.
Calories at 1620 for the day.
It was a good day. Tomorrow I will have another good day.
Thrift Store
I buy 99.999% of my pants at a thrift store. I get to wear jeans all the time, so it works easily. I like Levi's, and I scour thrift stores for them. Not so good at finding Levi's capris for the summer, though.
I bought a few pair of capris for the summer, but they were a touch too big. Today I put on my capris and could stand it no longer, they were much bigger and I had to pull them up continuously. So off to the thrift store. I found the next size down, tried them on, and they fit.
I came home and compared them to the current size of a clean pair. Much smaller. So I'm shrinking, because they were wearable until this morning. The scale does not compare with the size, but I'm going with it. The whole point is regardless of the size sewn in, physically they are smaller. And they fit.
Score.
Keep on keeping on!
I bought a few pair of capris for the summer, but they were a touch too big. Today I put on my capris and could stand it no longer, they were much bigger and I had to pull them up continuously. So off to the thrift store. I found the next size down, tried them on, and they fit.
I came home and compared them to the current size of a clean pair. Much smaller. So I'm shrinking, because they were wearable until this morning. The scale does not compare with the size, but I'm going with it. The whole point is regardless of the size sewn in, physically they are smaller. And they fit.
Score.
Keep on keeping on!
Perfection
More on perfection today.
I am a perfectionist. That is not a good thing. I am working on lightening up.
My eating was not on par today at all. I ate things I shouldn't have and too many calories. I was thinking about my blog tonight as I ran to Walmart for some groceries. When I started eons ago, I ate crap. I ate mac and cheese, processed foods, no vegetables...but I lost weight. I lost and as time progressed, I got better.
So here's my epiphany. I have always held that it is not good to throw everything out of your cupboards and fridge when starting a "diet." Moderation. Well, when you start, the thing is to start. So you weigh out your potato chips, count the calories. It's not healthy, but it works. For Pete's sake, no one can be perfect. And once we get some confidence built up, a few pounds gone, it makes it so much easier to ease into healthier eating. All of a sudden those potato chips don't taste as good, the craving is gone.
And that is how to be. Gentle. Easy on your soul. Nourishing to your soul. This is a big, huge endeavor and all or nothing thinking (cleaning out the kitchen and expecting yourself to be a completely clean eater) is not going to work. Gentle, step by step, and then one day you realize how healthful your dietary intake is.
That is my plan.
Either that or the Twinkie diet, but I really don't like diets. And yes, that Twinkie diet actually did work It's all about caloric deficit, however you choose to eat. We cannot hold ourselves to perfection, we will fail because none of us is perfect. Nor do we have to be.
Tomorrow, everything will be weighed, I will eat within calories, and not worry about perfection. And at the end of the day when I hit my target, I will be one step up that staircase to success.
I am a perfectionist. That is not a good thing. I am working on lightening up.
My eating was not on par today at all. I ate things I shouldn't have and too many calories. I was thinking about my blog tonight as I ran to Walmart for some groceries. When I started eons ago, I ate crap. I ate mac and cheese, processed foods, no vegetables...but I lost weight. I lost and as time progressed, I got better.
So here's my epiphany. I have always held that it is not good to throw everything out of your cupboards and fridge when starting a "diet." Moderation. Well, when you start, the thing is to start. So you weigh out your potato chips, count the calories. It's not healthy, but it works. For Pete's sake, no one can be perfect. And once we get some confidence built up, a few pounds gone, it makes it so much easier to ease into healthier eating. All of a sudden those potato chips don't taste as good, the craving is gone.
And that is how to be. Gentle. Easy on your soul. Nourishing to your soul. This is a big, huge endeavor and all or nothing thinking (cleaning out the kitchen and expecting yourself to be a completely clean eater) is not going to work. Gentle, step by step, and then one day you realize how healthful your dietary intake is.
That is my plan.
Either that or the Twinkie diet, but I really don't like diets. And yes, that Twinkie diet actually did work It's all about caloric deficit, however you choose to eat. We cannot hold ourselves to perfection, we will fail because none of us is perfect. Nor do we have to be.
Tomorrow, everything will be weighed, I will eat within calories, and not worry about perfection. And at the end of the day when I hit my target, I will be one step up that staircase to success.
5.28.2014
Well,...
No workout today. :( It was planned, my friend and I were on our way to the gym, but stopped by a professor's office and ended up talking almost an hour. I had a meeting to go to after that and didn't have enough time to work out and get cleaned up. By the time I got home, I was exhausted.
Excuses, excuses, excuses. Sometimes life gets in the way.
ugh
Another crazy day with my depression. I have the Kindle App on my phone and when I really struggle, I open up a book about changing negative thinking. That small thing really helps, even when it's hard for me to read.
Mind over matter. Exercise is the BEST cure for depression. I have read study after study about this. I'm not beating myself up over this, because the social interaction that took the place of my workout today was priceless and truly lifted my spirits.
Sometimes what we need comes to us, even when we have other plans.
It's all good.
Life is not perfect. I am not perfect, nor do I have to be. The point is the overall picture, not the nitty gritty details. It's cumulative, and consistency is imperative, but sometimes things get in the way. That's okay. Getting out of all or nothing thinking is a good thing.
Excuses, excuses, excuses. Sometimes life gets in the way.
ugh
Another crazy day with my depression. I have the Kindle App on my phone and when I really struggle, I open up a book about changing negative thinking. That small thing really helps, even when it's hard for me to read.
Mind over matter. Exercise is the BEST cure for depression. I have read study after study about this. I'm not beating myself up over this, because the social interaction that took the place of my workout today was priceless and truly lifted my spirits.
Sometimes what we need comes to us, even when we have other plans.
It's all good.
Life is not perfect. I am not perfect, nor do I have to be. The point is the overall picture, not the nitty gritty details. It's cumulative, and consistency is imperative, but sometimes things get in the way. That's okay. Getting out of all or nothing thinking is a good thing.
5.26.2014
My New Gym Bag
I tried. Oh, how I tried. I wanted another gym bag to keep in my car for when I work out at school, an hour from where I live. My bag doesn't fit in the locker very well. So I thought a backpack would work better--and I still think that. However, I found one on clearance and DH agreed to buy it. $22. Well, it's too small. My stuff, including a workout outfit, shoes, towel, heart rate monitor, arm band, and my workout log just barely fit. Barely. I didn't get the toiletries in there. Yet. That thing is stuffed.
He won't be happy, so I'll just keep it to myself. Maybe the back to school sales will have a deal? Or not, backpacks are expensive. So are gym bags.
And so it goes. All ready to hit the gym tomorrow and have my friend force me to do flutter kicks, push ups, planks and crunches. Those are my favorite things! (NOT!!!)
Another thing I'd really like to do is hit my chain gym in that town. They have a step mill and I still haven't tried that. The weight room at school is very cool but full of young studly guys, and my friend doesn't want to do weights. I think I just need to walk through it, maybe with my video camera going, and map out what's there and try it someday.
I like working out. It gives me a high unlike everything else. I like the school because the bike saddles are very comfortable. My gym's saddles hurt my tail bone. With my wonky feet, biking is all that I do. I need to become friends with the Concept2 Rower. Someday. Rome wasn't built in a day.
Right now the most important thing is consistency, getting in my groove, and doing. I need to add kettlebells back in, and push harder with the weight training--but one step at a time.
Every day, getting stronger and better. It will all come together!
He won't be happy, so I'll just keep it to myself. Maybe the back to school sales will have a deal? Or not, backpacks are expensive. So are gym bags.
And so it goes. All ready to hit the gym tomorrow and have my friend force me to do flutter kicks, push ups, planks and crunches. Those are my favorite things! (NOT!!!)
Another thing I'd really like to do is hit my chain gym in that town. They have a step mill and I still haven't tried that. The weight room at school is very cool but full of young studly guys, and my friend doesn't want to do weights. I think I just need to walk through it, maybe with my video camera going, and map out what's there and try it someday.
I like working out. It gives me a high unlike everything else. I like the school because the bike saddles are very comfortable. My gym's saddles hurt my tail bone. With my wonky feet, biking is all that I do. I need to become friends with the Concept2 Rower. Someday. Rome wasn't built in a day.
Right now the most important thing is consistency, getting in my groove, and doing. I need to add kettlebells back in, and push harder with the weight training--but one step at a time.
Every day, getting stronger and better. It will all come together!
Thank You and Good News
Thank you all for the lovely, supportive comments. I've been forcing myself to blog, just to get in the habit, I guess. I've always said if you surround yourself with that which you would like to become, you will. And I have been hanging with wonderful people, but those people do not have the same health/fitness goals that I do. So I need balance, I need to be around the amazing people that are on the same quest. I am humbled that you all remember me and are taking the time to comment. It is greatly appreciated.
Now the good news, I'm down two pounds!!!
And I fully expect to be down again next week. Gee, that's the only time it's good to be "down." LOL
I guess for the next couple weeks the best goal for me to have is get into good habits and routines. Prioritize my life, put myself first even though I have school--my health is most important.
It's all good.
Crush it!!!
Now the good news, I'm down two pounds!!!
And I fully expect to be down again next week. Gee, that's the only time it's good to be "down." LOL
I guess for the next couple weeks the best goal for me to have is get into good habits and routines. Prioritize my life, put myself first even though I have school--my health is most important.
It's all good.
Crush it!!!
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