I did work out today. I lasted 27 minutes and that pain started up almost immediately and got progressively worse until I *had* to stop. Extremely frustrating.
I don't quite understand what's been going on in my head. I must have something wrong--some kind of bug. I *love* to work out--seriously! So something is off.
Today I felt toxic, off--had a headache and just felt, well, unclean, if that makes any sense. The pain surprised me as I thought it was all gone.
I don't think I have the winter blues after all. I did yesterday but I was much more cheerful today--didn't have that sinking feeling. Time will tell.
Hormones--grrr. This all could be a bad case of hormones, which I'm not unfamiliar with. I don't like it.
I chose a light workout today, The Firm's Ballroom Aerobics. I will choose a light workout again tomorrow and see how I do. I'll just keep plugging away until I get my grove back.
That poor doctor is going to be bombarded by me when I see her next!
1.27.2010
1.26.2010
Winter Blues
UGH. They have hit me. Today I was pain free but just felt drained and down. The sun was shining, but it was cold. I typically get the winter blues right after Christmas. I haven't had them this year--until today. And that may be just hormones still talking, I'm not quite sure.
I have not exercised since Friday. I cannot believe that! I feel it. I know it would help. Nothing inspired me today. I did do one Classical Stretch routine called the Spine and it felt soooooo good. I wore my HRM and burned 34 calories. lol It's great for flexibility, my back, aches and pains. I am very pleased with my Classical Stretch purchase. IF you have PBS, check the schedule as it airs here Mon, Wed and Fri mornings at 6am. It looks "old ladyish" but it's amazing.
Tomorrow: I'm looking at my list of videos and just not feeling any video love. I *must* work out. I did buy some used Charlene Prickett step videos this weekend and will be watching my mailbox for their arrival. Her workouts are an hour long, which I want and need. If you go to her website and look at the previews for her DVDs, you'll be shocked: she steps on a 10-inch step! I use 4 inches the first time I do a workout and then thereafter I use 6 inches. 10? Wow. She's amazing for a woman her age.
I think I need to get out of the house tomorrow. I think that will help me a bit. There's just no where to go--perhaps I could hit the two thrift stores in town and then visit Wal-Mart. We need more salad and cereal. lol Just getting out and breathing some freezing fresh air would do wonders.
The weather has been horrible. Schools were closed the last two days, wind blowing and howling, roads closed. I suppose that didn't help my mood, either.
If I could wave a magic wand and get these stupid hormones under control, life would be so much better.
On a bright note, I have not gone above calories even though I was in an eat mode. So I guess I'm learning to not eat my feelings, frustration, blues and pain. That's a good thing.
I have not exercised since Friday. I cannot believe that! I feel it. I know it would help. Nothing inspired me today. I did do one Classical Stretch routine called the Spine and it felt soooooo good. I wore my HRM and burned 34 calories. lol It's great for flexibility, my back, aches and pains. I am very pleased with my Classical Stretch purchase. IF you have PBS, check the schedule as it airs here Mon, Wed and Fri mornings at 6am. It looks "old ladyish" but it's amazing.
Tomorrow: I'm looking at my list of videos and just not feeling any video love. I *must* work out. I did buy some used Charlene Prickett step videos this weekend and will be watching my mailbox for their arrival. Her workouts are an hour long, which I want and need. If you go to her website and look at the previews for her DVDs, you'll be shocked: she steps on a 10-inch step! I use 4 inches the first time I do a workout and then thereafter I use 6 inches. 10? Wow. She's amazing for a woman her age.
I think I need to get out of the house tomorrow. I think that will help me a bit. There's just no where to go--perhaps I could hit the two thrift stores in town and then visit Wal-Mart. We need more salad and cereal. lol Just getting out and breathing some freezing fresh air would do wonders.
The weather has been horrible. Schools were closed the last two days, wind blowing and howling, roads closed. I suppose that didn't help my mood, either.
If I could wave a magic wand and get these stupid hormones under control, life would be so much better.
On a bright note, I have not gone above calories even though I was in an eat mode. So I guess I'm learning to not eat my feelings, frustration, blues and pain. That's a good thing.
1.24.2010
I Did Not...(more whining--the Queen of whining!)
-catch up on blogs. I tried, but had to quit
-exercise
-clean the house
-do the laundry
-watch tv
-read a book
-buy groceries
I had a bad weekend. Plagued by anxiety, it was a Xanax-popping weekend. Light- headedness, anxiety, feeling as if I wanted to climb out of my skin, nausea extreme. The worst? That pain, the ovary pain. It was high yesterday, high today. It's not constant, but when it hits, it hits hard.
I do have a doctor appointment the beginning of February. I'm flat out going to ask if she'll put me in medically induced menopause. I know they can do it, I was in it for six month when I was 28 while they were monitoring my first fibroid.
This is drastically reducing the quality of my life when it hits. I sure don't want surgery, I'm still kicking myself for not demanding a full hysterectomy instead of the ablation. The ablation, however, was a huge success. My problem was more than that, though, I have had "the pain" for years, and it gets worse as I get older. Thankfully I no longer have the gusher, soak the sheets bleeding and the cramps so bad I'm on the couch two days. So I am very thankful for that.
I have had three gynecological surgeries in my life. I've had problems since I started menstruating when I was 10 years old. I'm tired of this.
The worst part? I've been without exercise for two days. I missed Thursday as well due to the pain. The pain is deep inside, and it is extremely stabbing when it hits. Sometimes it's a dull ache, but usually it makes me double over. I cannot walk straight, let alone work out.
Uncle. I give. Fix it.
Having said all that, life could be so much worse. I feel guilty complaining about a few days a month when some live with much worse conditions. Really, I am thankful that my physical woes are what they are. But by golly if they can do something to help, I really would appreciate it.
Otherwise, I think I need to accept that this is what it is, have no guilt when I cannot work out, and arrange my schedule knowing it's going to happen. So I can change my attitude about it. I would bet $100 they will not put me in a medically induced menopause. So I just need to adjust to it, unless they can offer something to help.
Motrin? Doesn't even touch the pain. In fact, the drugs I got after my surgery this past summer? Mildly numbed the pain, but it was still there. I've used them all up.
So life is behind in every way, and I doubt I'll be catching up on blogs for awhile. I'm sorry. I love following everyone's journeys and feel a deep connection with my blogging friends. I just hope you all understand.
Love, Jo
the basket case lol
-exercise
-clean the house
-do the laundry
-watch tv
-read a book
-buy groceries
I had a bad weekend. Plagued by anxiety, it was a Xanax-popping weekend. Light- headedness, anxiety, feeling as if I wanted to climb out of my skin, nausea extreme. The worst? That pain, the ovary pain. It was high yesterday, high today. It's not constant, but when it hits, it hits hard.
I do have a doctor appointment the beginning of February. I'm flat out going to ask if she'll put me in medically induced menopause. I know they can do it, I was in it for six month when I was 28 while they were monitoring my first fibroid.
This is drastically reducing the quality of my life when it hits. I sure don't want surgery, I'm still kicking myself for not demanding a full hysterectomy instead of the ablation. The ablation, however, was a huge success. My problem was more than that, though, I have had "the pain" for years, and it gets worse as I get older. Thankfully I no longer have the gusher, soak the sheets bleeding and the cramps so bad I'm on the couch two days. So I am very thankful for that.
I have had three gynecological surgeries in my life. I've had problems since I started menstruating when I was 10 years old. I'm tired of this.
The worst part? I've been without exercise for two days. I missed Thursday as well due to the pain. The pain is deep inside, and it is extremely stabbing when it hits. Sometimes it's a dull ache, but usually it makes me double over. I cannot walk straight, let alone work out.
Uncle. I give. Fix it.
Having said all that, life could be so much worse. I feel guilty complaining about a few days a month when some live with much worse conditions. Really, I am thankful that my physical woes are what they are. But by golly if they can do something to help, I really would appreciate it.
Otherwise, I think I need to accept that this is what it is, have no guilt when I cannot work out, and arrange my schedule knowing it's going to happen. So I can change my attitude about it. I would bet $100 they will not put me in a medically induced menopause. So I just need to adjust to it, unless they can offer something to help.
Motrin? Doesn't even touch the pain. In fact, the drugs I got after my surgery this past summer? Mildly numbed the pain, but it was still there. I've used them all up.
So life is behind in every way, and I doubt I'll be catching up on blogs for awhile. I'm sorry. I love following everyone's journeys and feel a deep connection with my blogging friends. I just hope you all understand.
Love, Jo
the basket case lol
1.21.2010
More Info
I'm still behind, but I wanted to take just a minute to expand on this morning's post.
I do not watch The Biggest Loser. I have always thought it was unsafe, the way they push the contestants in exercise. Last season I tried to watch it, saw the first two or three episodes, including the one where the woman passed out and was hospitalized. Then the coach, wasn't he in the hospital, too? Proved my point to myself: unsafe.
And don't get me started on Jillian. (Wouldn't she be beautiful if she would wipe the smirk off her face and stand up straight instead of pushing her slanted pelvis at us?) (YES, I can be snarky.)
I was curious about the science behind it. Dr. Huizenga's book does not have The Biggest Loser on the cover as all the rest of TBL stuff does. I bought it because I was intrigued.
He has people starting off by walking an hour outside in the morning with the intention of them building up to a jog and run. He lives in Malibu. I invite him to come to Minnesota and start his program in January. Ha! The evenings he gives them their choice of cardio and strength training on alternating days.
I never, ever, ever, ever could have done this a few months ago. I think it would have been very unsafe for me. I have been building up to this--and I can do it now. I'm tired, but the hardest part is figuring out the timing of it all. I don't like early morning exercise--I tried real hard, but it just isn't for me. So I'm doing mid-morning workouts and then late afternoon/early evening so I give my body enough recovery time. So had I bought his book when I weighed 282.5 and jumped right in--it would have killed me. lol
Another thing is that while I do visit my doctor, have blood work, etc., my doctor does not go to the extreme that he does when examining patients. He administers *a lot* of different types of tests. Much, much more than a standard physical. So I kind of question that aspect of his book as well.
His book is good, I think it outlines a good program. I do think he goes a little too low on the calories. They determine calories needed by the testing they do. I live in Podunk and don't have access to these tests. I could get a BodPod test 100 miles from here, but I just don't think it's worth it. I know I'm losing fat and gaining muscle. I'll use his generic formula of multiplying your weight by 7 to get your calories needed. And FWIW, I eat about 100 more than that a day.
I just finished reading the book last night and need to read it again taking notes. The plan is simple: eat less, exercise more. Watch what you're eating, follow his prescribed exercise. It does have a lot of science behind it--science he learned from Season 3' At-Home contestants.
Like I do with everything in life, I'll take what I can apply to myself and leave the rest behind. I can and will do the exercise twice daily while I'm in losing mode. If it gets to be too much, I'll knock off. I listen closely to my body.
For example, I will not be doing an evening workout today. Why? Because "that pain" that I have had or years, which I believe is a repeating ovarian cyst, reared its ugly head today. On a scale of 1-10, it was at an 8. I got into bed, DS brought his work with him and sat next to me, and I dozed off and on. This is a big signal to me to REST. The pain is now gone, I think it was bursting--if that's really what it is, but I will give my body time to recover.
I don't want to run. I don't want to jog. I have a few personal reasons for that, but one major is the climate in which I live. So I choose to do my beloved videos. I make sure that I do strenuous videos that work my heart. Yesterday I did a Leslie Sansone and it was not strenuous to me at all, and I won't be repeating unless I'm sick. Work hard, sweat hard, improve my cardio endurance. As for strength work, again, I'm using my videos. I do need to re-read that portion of his book because there are a few exercises my videos don't do that I would gladly incorporate into my routine. (Pull-ups and ankle work comes to mind.)
I was getting very frustrated with how the scale had slowed down, even though I was losing fat. I was tired of being in the 220s. I was sad I'd only lost 60 pounds in 10 1/2 months--I felt at my starting weight it should have been more because I don't cheat. This is a nice boost, it moved that darned scale, it's going to make me stronger, it's going to improve my heart! (I've already noticed my resting heart rate has gone from the mid 80s to the 70s!)
I'm not going to be losing muscle and bone in addition to fat. Rather, I'm gaining muscle, bone and blood volume--I didn't know that about blood! I am tired of being obese.
So I just figured I can give myself 2 hours a day--it's minor in the scheme of things. Quality of life is so important, and this will get me there. Besides, I really enjoy working out!
I do not watch The Biggest Loser. I have always thought it was unsafe, the way they push the contestants in exercise. Last season I tried to watch it, saw the first two or three episodes, including the one where the woman passed out and was hospitalized. Then the coach, wasn't he in the hospital, too? Proved my point to myself: unsafe.
And don't get me started on Jillian. (Wouldn't she be beautiful if she would wipe the smirk off her face and stand up straight instead of pushing her slanted pelvis at us?) (YES, I can be snarky.)
I was curious about the science behind it. Dr. Huizenga's book does not have The Biggest Loser on the cover as all the rest of TBL stuff does. I bought it because I was intrigued.
He has people starting off by walking an hour outside in the morning with the intention of them building up to a jog and run. He lives in Malibu. I invite him to come to Minnesota and start his program in January. Ha! The evenings he gives them their choice of cardio and strength training on alternating days.
I never, ever, ever, ever could have done this a few months ago. I think it would have been very unsafe for me. I have been building up to this--and I can do it now. I'm tired, but the hardest part is figuring out the timing of it all. I don't like early morning exercise--I tried real hard, but it just isn't for me. So I'm doing mid-morning workouts and then late afternoon/early evening so I give my body enough recovery time. So had I bought his book when I weighed 282.5 and jumped right in--it would have killed me. lol
Another thing is that while I do visit my doctor, have blood work, etc., my doctor does not go to the extreme that he does when examining patients. He administers *a lot* of different types of tests. Much, much more than a standard physical. So I kind of question that aspect of his book as well.
His book is good, I think it outlines a good program. I do think he goes a little too low on the calories. They determine calories needed by the testing they do. I live in Podunk and don't have access to these tests. I could get a BodPod test 100 miles from here, but I just don't think it's worth it. I know I'm losing fat and gaining muscle. I'll use his generic formula of multiplying your weight by 7 to get your calories needed. And FWIW, I eat about 100 more than that a day.
I just finished reading the book last night and need to read it again taking notes. The plan is simple: eat less, exercise more. Watch what you're eating, follow his prescribed exercise. It does have a lot of science behind it--science he learned from Season 3' At-Home contestants.
Like I do with everything in life, I'll take what I can apply to myself and leave the rest behind. I can and will do the exercise twice daily while I'm in losing mode. If it gets to be too much, I'll knock off. I listen closely to my body.
For example, I will not be doing an evening workout today. Why? Because "that pain" that I have had or years, which I believe is a repeating ovarian cyst, reared its ugly head today. On a scale of 1-10, it was at an 8. I got into bed, DS brought his work with him and sat next to me, and I dozed off and on. This is a big signal to me to REST. The pain is now gone, I think it was bursting--if that's really what it is, but I will give my body time to recover.
I don't want to run. I don't want to jog. I have a few personal reasons for that, but one major is the climate in which I live. So I choose to do my beloved videos. I make sure that I do strenuous videos that work my heart. Yesterday I did a Leslie Sansone and it was not strenuous to me at all, and I won't be repeating unless I'm sick. Work hard, sweat hard, improve my cardio endurance. As for strength work, again, I'm using my videos. I do need to re-read that portion of his book because there are a few exercises my videos don't do that I would gladly incorporate into my routine. (Pull-ups and ankle work comes to mind.)
I was getting very frustrated with how the scale had slowed down, even though I was losing fat. I was tired of being in the 220s. I was sad I'd only lost 60 pounds in 10 1/2 months--I felt at my starting weight it should have been more because I don't cheat. This is a nice boost, it moved that darned scale, it's going to make me stronger, it's going to improve my heart! (I've already noticed my resting heart rate has gone from the mid 80s to the 70s!)
I'm not going to be losing muscle and bone in addition to fat. Rather, I'm gaining muscle, bone and blood volume--I didn't know that about blood! I am tired of being obese.
So I just figured I can give myself 2 hours a day--it's minor in the scheme of things. Quality of life is so important, and this will get me there. Besides, I really enjoy working out!
Behind
Busy, behind, busy, behind, can't catch up, behind, busy: STRESSED OUT. lol
Haven't read blogs, haven't thanked for awards, haven't been online like normal. School's been busy, hubby took a day off, our other computer crashed, working out twice a day is great but it's hard to fit in well time wise.
Will catch up soon.
Went out to dinner the other night in my size 16 jeans-hubby suggested I wear a larger pair. I said NO WAY and did fine in my 16s. lol
Reading Where Did All the Fat Go by Dr. Rob Huizenga, the doctor who designed the program The Biggest Loser. I don't watch that show at all, but I appreciate and enjoy reading the science behind it. This book is what inspired me to workout twice a day. This quote from that book hangs on my fridge:
Isn't that powerful?
I hope to get caught up soon!
Haven't read blogs, haven't thanked for awards, haven't been online like normal. School's been busy, hubby took a day off, our other computer crashed, working out twice a day is great but it's hard to fit in well time wise.
Will catch up soon.
Went out to dinner the other night in my size 16 jeans-hubby suggested I wear a larger pair. I said NO WAY and did fine in my 16s. lol
Reading Where Did All the Fat Go by Dr. Rob Huizenga, the doctor who designed the program The Biggest Loser. I don't watch that show at all, but I appreciate and enjoy reading the science behind it. This book is what inspired me to workout twice a day. This quote from that book hangs on my fridge:
Is exercise two hours per day for six months impractical?
Would you encourage a loved one to attend two hours or more of outpatient rehab per day if you discovered they had a heroin habit? Would you expect your mom to agree to four hours of dialysis every other day if her kidneys failed? Would you take chemo two hours per day for six months if it could cure your newly diagnosed cancer?
If you have overflowing abdominal fat, you're facing a choice, in my opinion, not terribly dissimilar from the above examples. Your excess fat is a deliberate poison. It's not easy, but two hours per day of exercise with calorie counting and moderate caloric restriction for six months is a small price to pay to remove the poison.
Dr. Rob Huizenga
Isn't that powerful?
I hope to get caught up soon!
1.18.2010
Monday Morning Weigh In
I wrote a big, long post with links to books and thanks to bloggers whose contests I've won and two awards, and a fabulous quote and darned if blogger didn't eat it! I don't have time to re-do, so I'll try again later. I'll also do a post about my heart rate monitor today or tomorrow as a few asked in the comments. It's time to work out!
Right now I'd just like to report my weigh-in:
219
Down 3 pounds! =)
Right now I'd just like to report my weigh-in:
219
Down 3 pounds! =)
1.17.2010
Official: Size 16
Today I put my size 16 jeans on, they zipped right up, and off I went into the world.
So it's official, I am now a size 16. The last time I posted, I had to lie down on the bed to zip them.
Here's the weird thing: I bought these 7 years ago when I lost 70 pounds. I was in the 190s by the time I was able to wear these jeans. I only wore them a very short time before I started gaining wait again. So I'm 30ish pounds heavier--
this proves a point:
I AM losing fat. The scale cannot reflect the fat loss. Obviously I'm gaining muscle.
So even though I get down about that stupid scale, what I'm doing is working. In fact, it's working very well if I'm 220 pounds and wearing a size 16.
I'm FIT!
Woot!
So it's official, I am now a size 16. The last time I posted, I had to lie down on the bed to zip them.
Here's the weird thing: I bought these 7 years ago when I lost 70 pounds. I was in the 190s by the time I was able to wear these jeans. I only wore them a very short time before I started gaining wait again. So I'm 30ish pounds heavier--
this proves a point:
I AM losing fat. The scale cannot reflect the fat loss. Obviously I'm gaining muscle.
So even though I get down about that stupid scale, what I'm doing is working. In fact, it's working very well if I'm 220 pounds and wearing a size 16.
I'm FIT!
Woot!
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