naked...
Monday morning...
how in the h*ll did I get so fat!
Day four with Weight Watchers.
I lost 72 pounds once before, I will do it again.
I'm more realistic this time. I have no goal of weighing 120 pounds. Right now I'm shooting for 250. Then 225. Then 200. Then 175. I think I'll call 'er good at 175.
Reminder to self:
I feel like sh*t.
I hurt all the time. Physical pain daily.
My ankles are huge.
My face is fat.
Everything is fat.
I can't bend.
I have constant IBS, according to my doc. I say it's a localized pain and it hurts like h*ll. It's hurting now, bad.
I'm not motivated by being pretty, getting skinny, showing someone, being the best...my motivation is two-fold: fear of diabetes and PAIN.
I am lethargic.
I am tired.
I have headaches every day.
Whoever said it's easy to be fat doesn't know what it's like.
OMG. I found you through one of my friends and I could have written this post myself a couple weeks ago. Since then I have started my journey to getting healthy and not having headaches daily. Congratulations on your success so far! Now I must go read more of your story.
ReplyDeleteI *********NEVER********* had IBS. My doc just wouldn't run the tests--I had a kidney stone stuck for years. It WAS a localized pain, the stone was stuck in the ureter.
ReplyDeleteI am about to embark on my own journey ..... again. Sigh. I've been reading your blog and its super motivating. You're super strong
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