A Beautiful Sunset

Tonight I watched one of the most beautiful sunsets I have ever seen. The colors in the sky were on fire and glowed so intently that the color inside the house changed. It was breathtaking. I'm not overly religious, don't go to church, but when I see such things it just makes me feel as if God is pouring His love on everything. =) It actually gives me goosebumps, as I find it highly spiritual.

I shall call the doc tomorrow to see if the results of my test are back. I doubt they are, I'm thinking at least two weeks from what I read online.

Feeling lost with my workouts...I'm going again, but I haven't done a strength workout in a long time. I can really see it in my body, too. Discussed this with hubby tonight. I had wanted to start Cathe's STS, and had done the first few workouts. Then I quit. Do I start, knowing I may have to quit for a bit due to surgery? And what kind of surgery will I have? So many unanswered questions. Hubby and I both decided if I have to stop, I'll stop, but it would be best for me to start STS again. I think that's a good decision.

I have fallen head over hills in love with Christi Taylor's Stepsational step aerobics DVD. I love her personality, the music she's chosen, and it's such a fun workout. Never thought I'd say this, but I love her as much as I love my Firms. I ordered two of her DVDs, did the second today, and it was more difficult for me but the music was great. I have a sneaky suspicion I'll be doing Stepsational frequently.

I have been thinking about stress a lot. Life's too short to get worked up over the little things and even some of the big things. I am one that gets worked up easily. The past few days I've been taking imaginary chill pills. Today I offered an imaginary chill pill to my son and he thought I'd lost my mind. I was just trying to be funny as he was stressing out over his math. The levity worked and he relaxed a bit. I am feeling so much better. I was really feeling squeezed by the world. Now my shoulders aren't next to my ears, I keep the big picture in mind, and I'm just chillin'. That's a good thing.

I think back to my mom, who died before the age of 60, and she was a Type A personality, always stressed out, and I just know that was a huge factor in her health.

So life goes on. I'm still kind of in tunnel vision right now, not much to give to others at the moment. When I know where I'm going, I'll be able to re-focus my energies.

Had a stay-the-same this week for weight. It actually goes up and down between 205.5 and 207. Every other day, back and forth. Haven't figured that one out, but I just laugh at it. I was very thrilled that Monday, official weigh-in day, it was at the lower end. I'm not gaining, and I'm completely within plan eating wise, it's just bopping around. That's okay, for now. I'm hoping that it will just say enough of this playing around, and give me a nice drop. 199 is so darned close.