Obsession

It's no secret that I love Richard Simmons. I have had my box of videos sitting on the chair in my living room for about two weeks now. Tired of the clutter, I pulled my favorites and put them in a basket. The rest I put in the closet. I have two DVDs that are not in this photo, Party Off the Pounds and Boogie Down the Pounds DVD, too.

I have more weights that aren't in the photo.

The videos not in cases are Richard Simmons videos. Yes, that is an unopened Leslie Sansone DVD in my box. I don't know why I have the Yoga tapes, I can't do yoga to save my life. Someday, maybe.

Neatly tucked away for my next workout. I decided they needed a home out in the open since I use them a lot.

Yes, I love Richard Simmons and I'm not afraid to admit it.

UFOs Here Last Night

There was a UFO here last night. The aliens beamed straight into my bedroom, took me to their spaceship and performed surgery on me. They did not leave a scar. Then they replaced me.

I completely forgot about it when I woke up this morning. I didn't remember it until I started working out to Richard Simmons' Sweatin' to the Oldies 2. Then I remembered. They implanted 20-pound weights into each arm.

Either that, or the workout I did yesterday, RS's Blast and Tone, really worked my arms harder than I thought. It was amazing how sore my arms were today, I could hardly lift them toward the end of the video. I felt the burn!

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I in no way mean to be offensive to people who believe in UFO's or aliens or any of that. I have, in fact, seen something a few years ago that I could not logically explain. I'm not saying it was a UFO, but I'm not ruling it out, either. I'm just trying to be funny.

No aliens were harmed in the writing of this post, though.

2 things

1. I bit the bullet and spent $15 to upgrade my calendar. I will go from 3000 free hits to 13000. That should more than cover things. It's too cluttered to have a month's worth of exercise in text on the sidebar, I think. I spent my online time this morning searching for another calendar, but didn't find one I liked as well. Cha-ching.

2. When Weight Watchers drops your points, be prepared for a mental battle of great magnitude. I obsessed about food all day yesterday. I was starving. After I hit my 30 points last night, I was starving. I thought I'd go crazy if I didn't have something to eat, that I would faint from low blood sugar. Ahem. (eye roll!) I went to bed, got up, went back to bed, got up again. Finally, I drank a glass of tomato juice, which I am supposed to count as points, but don't. It's thick and filling. It did the trick.

It's a mental thing, and I know it. I wasn't really hungry, I was just pouting that they took three points away. Take one or two, that wouldn't be so bad. But three?

Gee, I just won't let this drop!

I can whine with the best of them!

DS is doing independent work now, so I'm going to go exercise. I won't be able to upload it into my upgraded calender until tomorrow, because they take 24 hours to verify my credit card. Wish I would have done that last night instead, as I like instant gratification.

Really???

Notice my exercise calendar to the left...wait, it's not there.

Your monthly views limit has been reached.

Holy cow. I went to the calendar website, and I'm given 3000 hits per month for free. I click it once a day after I have entered my exercise, so this month I've given it 12 hits--well, less, as I didn't exercise this weekend. Are people really reading my exercise? Cool! I'm flattered! And shocked! That will definitely keep me motivated to work out! If I leave a day blank, I want someone to call me on it.

So I'm cheap, I don't want to fork out $15 to upgrade to 10,000 hits a month for a year. I'm still shocked it has 3000 hits on May 12th! lol

I like that calendar. It is in my face: it shows me my great work, it shows me the error of my ways. I go to my blog every day so that I can hit the dashboard and read other blogs. I see that thing every single day and it's a wonderful reminder. What will I do without it?

Any other good calendars out there?

I'm shocked. lol

Tuesdays

Tuesdays are busy days here. Our day got all screwed up due to the doctor appointment. We got a little bit of school done this afternoon, then I drove DS to his art class. I came home and did some stuff, did Blast and Tone (my abs hurt, I'm a baby!) then I took Pip for a walk. We only got 20 minutes in due to the fact I had to pick DS up.

Visited way too long with the art teacher and got home late at 20 after 5. Hubby wasn't here. I was just a tad worried. By 6:30, I was pacing because he didn't answer his phone. So I drove to his office. There were about eight cars there, so I figured they were working on their rush project. Got home, made supper for DS and I and hubby called. He didn't get home until 8pm.

He apologized for not calling earlier as they were busy. I gathered that, but I reminded him that was NOT nice to do to someone who has anxiety issues. lol I had horrible visions--that's what stupid worrying and anxiety does. When I saw other cars there, I was relieved that he wasn't tapped under a machine that had collapsed or some such thing.

Whew. If I drank, I'd have a drink tonight. I don't, and I also don't have points for it. I came in at 30 on the dot for the day. So I guess I'm going to follow the current rules, because that's what I do, I follow rules. I whine a lot about it, though. lol

Tomorrow I have high hopes of getting a lot done besides school--I have to.

Honesty time: I did NOT get enough fruits and veggies in. In fact, I only got a tomato juice and serving of baby carrots. Baaaaad. I had salad fixin's in the fridge, but I didn't do the fixin'.

Wow

My son had his doctor's appointment today. It went so much better than I had expected or hoped for.

He is going to do a computer test at the end of the week, which I'm not sure exactly what it is, but he will start on Concerta after the test.

The doctor was warm, friendly, compassionate and comfortable to be around. We asked questions, she took her time in answering questions to my satisfaction.

This is such a stark contrast from what I have experienced for the past 11 years.

When we moved here, there was one clinic with several doctors. It is part of the Mayo Clinic, although we don't live in Rochester. The Mayo Clinic has tons of doctor's offices in Minnesota. From the second you place a call there, you are treated rudely. The nurses and doctors are all right, I liked my doctor fine, but I could never get in to see him.

When I was pregnant 10 years ago, I started to miscarry. I didn't know if it was a miscarriage or what to do, so I called my OB. I was told he was seeing patients and they said they'd give him my name and number. I was fine with that, I didn't expect him to come to the phone that second. He never called. That night, I talked to a neighbor who was a nurse, and she called the emergency room of our hospital and a nurse friend of hers, and they told me I could come in, but what I was experiencing sounded like a miscarriage. I didn't go in because I didn't have any of the warning signs she told me about.

The next day I called the doctor's office again. I was told the same thing, he's seeing other patients. Could he please call me when he has a moment? He never called.

The third day I called and I got b*tcy. The gal I talked to read me the riot act over the phone, informed me he was seeing his scheduled patients and I wasn't on his schedule. I told her, "Excuse me, I did not schedule my miscarriage." Funny, the doctor called me back in 10 minutes.

Then, of course, I bled for 45 days before he would do a D&C.

That was the worst of experiences there, but all were close to that. I never felt like we were getting good care. I never had the time to have all my questions answered. My personal doctor never told me I was pre-diabetic, another doctor did when I couldn't get in to see mine when I had a sinus infection. I didn't know that there was something called pre-diabetes, insulin resistance, Syndrome X, however you want to term it. I thought you either were or weren't diabetic.

This clinic is one of the reasons I have not liked where I live. Health care is so important and having doctors you can trust is so important.

Two doctors splintered from the clinic. They opened about two years ago. I never thought to go to them for some strange reason. Today we did, and I am thrilled because we have a new family doctor. I was so impressed. From the minute we walked in the door, we were treated nicely and with respect.

This afternoon, I am going to call and schedule a physical for me. I am also going to have my records transferred. It thrills me to think I can actually write out my questions before I go in and know that she'll take the time to listen to what I have to say and answer my questions! I'm excited for all the work I've done, and I can' wait to see my blood work--hopefully it will have improved. I'm excited to ask questions about what other vitamins I can take to enhance my health. I'm excited to have someone on my team. I'm really excited to have someone to discuss this anxiety stuff with and not be blown off.

Wow.

I'm a Rebel

Last night I mentioned that Weight Watchers took away 3 points from me. I do WW online.

Well, since I stated this journey, I have been using my Winning Points book as a guide. I never count tomato juice with points, and Winning Points gives it free. Momentum does not. I feel more comfortable with the range than a target.

I was looking through my program materials this morning and I decided I have to make the decision: The new Momentum program OR old Winning Points. I lost 72 pounds once before on Winning Points. Yeah, I think I'll stick with it.

I like it because I have the book to hold in my hand. I don't like WW Online because it takes so long to find anything.

So according to Winning Points, I can eat in a range: 28-33 points. On Momentum, I have been dropped to a target of 30. I have always eaten at the top of the range. So I think I'm going to stick with 33 for a bit and see what happens.

I don't eat activity points. I rarely use the 35 flex points, which are not a part of Winning Points.

It has to all wash out. I'll still have some extra points floating out there due to activity.

I'm a creature of habit and I don't like change. There are some days, gasp!, where I can't hit the target and I am under. That's okay on Winning Points.

I'm playing mind games here. It's the same program, just tweaked. That 3-point drop was just a jolt to me. Winning Points only has 2-point drops. Why is it that 2 points seems more doable than 3 points?

I can shave 3 points off daily very easily--I know just where to take it from. I just would prefer to do 2--it doesn't sound so abrupt, so sudden, like so much all at once. lol And the weird thing is, Winning Points keeps me at 33, which is what I have been eating. The old 1-2-3 program (for which I have the book!) had a point range of 28-35 for my weight.

This rambling post is just a big whine on my part. I'm revolting at losing 3 points. I'm sputtering, making excuses, and grasping at straws in revolt.

All right, already, I'll just give up the darned 3 points and be done with it.

Then again, if I were to follow Momentum and actually use the Flex points divided up weekly, my target would be 35 daily, which is 2 points higher than what I was allowed previously...

lmao. I need to get a grip.